Sunday, April 29, 2018

'Everyone Has Their Purpose'


Everyone has their purpose.  I just hadn’t discovered mine.

We were 3 benches in a park.

Bench 1 clearly knew its purpose.

It was to enjoy the rich conversations and the books of the people who sat on Bench 1.

Bench 1 was into mind-expanding things.

Bench 1 was always going on and on about philosophy and epistemology and such, things which, if they didn’t entirely go over my head, only somewhat interested me.

I am curious and I have a love for words.  These two personality traits made me listen to whatever Bench 1 said.

Bench 2 was clearly status-seeking, a name-dropper.

Bench 2 lived for the stylish, well-heeled, and well-known people that sat on Bench 2.

Bench 2 would tell you that Bench 2 occupants that day included people who wore Manolo Blahnik Hangisi shoes, or toted the most expensive Louis Vuitton bags, or drove up in a Tesla Model X P100 D.

As for me, neither status, nor mind expanding ideas, excited me, or held the key to my soul.

I registered everything Bench 1 and Bench 2 said.

I was curious enough for that.

Bench 1 and Bench 2 knew they had a perfect listener in me.

So they shared everything and anything that excited them, or troubled them, with me.

And I would listen.

But truthfully, I was interested in an "interesting what other benches find interesting" way.

I knew, there had to be something more.

One day, an older woman sat on my bench and said the rosary.

As she sat there, moving from bead to bead, and repeating the Our Father, Hail Mary and Glory Be, I caught a glimpse of what my purpose was.

Another day, two young men sat on my bench.

One of the young men had the book Awakening Loving-Kindness by Pema Chodron in his hands.

He explained to the other young man what meditating on loving-kindness meant.

I caught a glimpse of my purpose again.

Another day, I watched a man put a mat on the grass, put his hands up, then put his right hand over his left hand, then bend down and put his hands on his knees, then stand back up and bend down, placing his knees, hands and head on the floor, all the while reciting prayers.

I caught a glimpse of my purpose again.

One day, two Hindu studies major students sat on my bench.  One of them read this passage from the Bhagavad Gita out aloud to the other:

“The man who sees me in everything
and everything within me
will not be lost to me, nor
will I ever be lost to him.

He who is rooted in oneness
realizes that I am
in every being; wherever
he goes, he remains in me.

When he sees all being as equal
in suffering or in joy
because they are like himself,
that man has grown perfect in yoga.” 

I caught a glimpse of my purpose again.

Another day, two Jesuit priests chose me for their bench.

They spoke of wondrous things, such as St. Augustine hearing a childlike voice telling him to “take up and read”.

For days after, I kept thinking about that.

And then one day, it happened.

A man with a backpack and a stick entered the area where our 3 benches were located.

He looked weary and he looked tired and he looked disheveled and he looked unkempt.

I knew he was the kind of man Bench 1 and Bench 2 would be least interested in, even revolted by.

He looked at all 3 of us benches, and then made his way to where I was, even though I was the furthest bench.

He put his backpack down on one end of the bench.

Then, using the backpack as a pillow for his head, he sprawled across the length of the bench, covered his face with a dirty shirt, and fell into a deep sleep, from which he awoke, hours later, after which he picked up his things and left.

He came back the next day and did the same thing; and he came back the day after and did the same thing again.

At the end of day 3, after he had woken up and left, Bench 1 said to me: “Tough luck 3, to have a homeless guy single you out and make a habit of it.”

I didn’t say anything.

Bench 2 added, “Better accept it, 3.  You might be stuck with him at least till the weather changes!”

I didn’t say anything.

If only Bench 1 and Bench 2 knew…..at last, I had found my purpose.

                                             The End

Note:  The original idea for this story came to me in the form of a miraculous coincidence - which happened in October of 2012, almost 6 years ago.

Though I had the idea for this story 6 years ago, I wasn’t able to put it into words.

So it just lingered with me, all these years, until a few days ago.

Here's how it happened.

On the morning of April 27, 2018, while riding the bus to work and reading a book, suddenly these words came to my mind, “Everyone has their purpose”.

My mind, next inexplicably, jumped to my unwritten 3 benches story.

The next thing I knew, I was writing furiously.

This story, that had been waiting to be told for 6 years, got told.

And I am sharing it with you here today.

P.S.  Two things might have played a role in unblocking the writer’s block I had with the 3 Benches Story.

One is that during the week of April 23rd - 27th, I read the book “Preparing for Easter – Fifty Devotional Readings from C.S. Lewis.” It was while I was reading this book, the words, "Everyone has their purpose" came to my mind.

Also on the night of April 26, I watched the movie “The Hiding Place” about Corrie Ten Boom, based on the book of the same name. The movie moved me deeply.

I highly recommend both the book I read and the movie I watched.

Who knows what they will do for you?

Concluding Note: Hope you enjoyed this spring 2018 story. Thanks for reading and have a great spring. May you make the most of your blessings and be strong in your trials...Minoo

Sunday, April 22, 2018

The Power of Suffering To Transform Our Lives


The world breaks everyone.  And afterwards, some are strong at the broken places – Earnest Hemingway

The power of suffering to transform our lives

Suffering opens our eyes…..

We learn how precious time is. We learn to value time.

We learn how precious every healthy moment is. We learn to value every healthy moment.

We learn how precious relationships are. We learn to value every minute of time we have with someone.

We learn how precious and fragile our human capacities and abilities are. We learn to value our capacities and abilities.

We learn how precious our blessings are. We learn to value our blessings and our opportunities.

We learn how precious and fragile freedom is. We learn to value our freedom.

We learn how precious and fragile life is. We learn to value life.

Suffering makes us aware of how strong we are…..

We learn we are stronger than the strongest circumstances and trials.

We learn how resilient we are.

We learn our capacity to cope with challenges, grief and loss.

We learn that pain has transformative value.

We learn to find rays of sunshine even in the darkest of clouds.

Suffering makes us more discerning…

We learn what to take seriously.

We learn what to take lightly.

We learn how to act and react.

We learn to be more focused and intentional in our decisions.

We learn to choose our words and actions wisely.

We learn to let go of useless thoughts and emotions.

We learn, we learn, we learn.

This is the power of suffering.

Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls. The most massive characters are seared with scars – Khalil Gibran

Acknowledgements

Thanks for the feedback, (comments, likes, shares) on my Angie, I Will Remember For You post, and other recent posts. I appreciate the affirmations that I am on the right track from old friends, new friends, and relatives who have become friends. You keep me going.

NEXT, Thanks to all readers, current and future, for sharing my Journey to Wisdom, Meaning and a Better Life.  Like you, I am trying to find my way through this complex maze we call life, and I am honored to have you share my journey, as I continue to seek the wisdom hidden in plain sight.

FINALLY, A Happy Birthday shout-out:  to those with April birthdays.  Hope you use your birthday month to get unstuck from all non-constructive thoughts, emotions, and actions related to the current challenges and trials you are facing. And because suffering can strike anyone at any time, this wish goes out, not just to those with April birthdays, but to everyone else as well, those with January, February, March, May, June, July, August, September, October, November and December birthdays. Don't let what you can't change, or can't make happen, steal your joy.  Focus on what you can make happen - in your immediate sphere, if that's all you can impact.

Have a blessed week.
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P.S. Not sure if you have time, but if you do, you may enjoy these other posts:

Friendships
The United States of Friendship – Part 1Part 2Part 3Part 4Part 5Part 6,Part 7Part 8Part 9Part 10Part 11Part 12
Family
Pets
Nature

Hobbies
Managing Your Money
Simplifying Your Life
Getting Over Your Self-Consciousness
Learning to Laugh
Learning to Relax
Health
Pursuing A Dream
Changing in Good Ways

Sunday, April 15, 2018

Angie, I Will Remember For You...

The Willy Street house where Angie and Jim lived

On April 6, 2018, a memorial was held at the Essen Haus restaurant in Madison, Wisconsin, to celebrate the lives of my brother in law Jim and my sister Angie, who died tragically of the flu in January.

This post was made possible by Randy McElhose and Laurie Wermter, who organized the memorial at Essen Haus, and by all the other friends of Jim and Angie, who contributed time and money to make the Essen Haus memorial possible.

This post was also made possible by Bill and Joanie, friends of Jim and Angie, at whose urging and invitation,I went to Madison for the Essen Haus memorial. Thank you Bill and Joanie for your kindness and hospitality.

And finally, this post was made possible by Patrik, Jim’s Latin buddy, who spent a day driving me around Madison, so I could experience and get a taste of what Angie’s life was in that very special city.Thank you Patrik for that marvelous day.

Thank you all.

This post celebrates the memories.

Angie, I will remember for you…

Your Memorial

I will remember for you, the April 6, 2018 memorial held in Jim’s and your name, at the Essen Haus, the restaurant where you and Jim had spent many a lively evening, meeting up with friends, and participating in beer challenges.

I will remember for you… the beautiful collage, your co-op neighbors put together for your memorial, with pictures of you and Jim, alongside some Christmas cards you had sent out over the years, alongside the painting of you by an artist called Cara (which I brought back to San Jose with me), alongside a framed picture of Jim from his student days, alongside some of your poetry books.

I will remember for you…the heartwarming picture of around 60 people gathered together at the Essen Haus to celebrate your lives.

I will remember for you, the faces, and some of the names, of the people who came up to me at the memorial, and told me how they knew you - and when they had met you or Jim last. Some had met you just days before you left us.

I will remember for you…the glasses of wine we drank, the steaming meatballs, the shrimp, and all the other wonderful hors doeuvres we ate, served by the cheerful Essen Haus waitress in German dress.

I will remember for you… Randy’s speech, Laurie’s speech, and my reading of The Poet and The Gamer….a poem, I wrote for you, published on my blog earlier.

I will remember for you… the glasses of beer and wine raised to toast you, which Randy concluded his speech by calling everyone to do.

I will remember for you… the 4 poems written by you, your friend Peter Wolff hand-selected to read to the gathering.

Angie, I will also remember for you, pieces of your Madison life….

Your Life in Madison

I will remember for you… the Madison lakes.

I will remember for you…the brisk Madison April weather, not quite ready to say goodbye to winter.

I will remember for you…the charming Willy Street neighborhood, where you and Jim lived for over 40 years, and the distinctive red house you called your home.

I will remember for you….the kitchen where you cooked, the room where your earliest poems were written, the den where Jim cranked out those game reviews.

I will remember for you…the backyard garden you so loved to tend, and the rose plants you were so proud of.

I will remember for you…your dear co-op neighbors, whose lives were intricately woven with yours and Jim’s.

I will remember for you…the building where Jim worked, and where you often went to join him for lunch, and met him and his coworkers, many of whom were at the memorial.

I will remember for you…the majestic Wisconsin State Capitol building, where watching a wedding couple taking pictures, I thought back to how Jim and you, must have gone around the Capitol building in much the same way, when you first got married.

I will remember for you, the Wisconsin Historical Museum, with its 4 floors filled with wonderful artifacts of Wisconsin history, which entranced me, as it no doubt, once entranced you.

I will remember for you…The Great Dane Restaurant and Pub, where I ate my meal, thinking about all the meals and camaraderie you and Jim and your friends must have shared there, on so many summer evenings.

I will remember for youA Room Of One’s Own, the bookshop where I browsed the books, thinking of your intellectual legacy, as I recalled you had once given poetry readings there.

I will remember for you…the Madison public library, where I walked the book aisles, and thought about how many times your own footsteps must have walked those very same aisles.

I will remember for you…the Trader Joe’s where you liked to shop. I felt a kinship with you to learn from Patrik it was your favorite grocery store. Who knew? You too!

Angie, I will remember all the wonderful things I saw, heard, and experienced.

And if I forget, I will ask all those wonderful Madison folks, who so loved and admired you and Jim, to remind me again.

I love you Angie.  There is an ache in my heart, and I long for your presence again.  I long for the “Angieness” of Angie. My visit to Madison gave me the gift to experience some aspects of the long and interesting life you lived there. I will hold onto the memories as long as I live. And if I forget, I will ask your dear friends to remind me. I will remember, remember, remember.

Monday, April 9, 2018

I Am Enough

          I wish I had taken that job
          I wish I had paid more attention when I was first told  I was pre-diabetic
          I wish I had not suffered my depression
          I wish I had been less hasty in my decisions
          I wish I had been more considerate
          I wish I had spent more time with my kids
          I wish I hadn't been such a workaholic
          I wish I hadn’t been so tough on my daughter when she was younger
                   I wish.  I wish.  I wish.
                  I am more than I once was. And that is enough.

Sunday, April 1, 2018

What Better Day Than Easter Sunday To Turn to the Strength Within?


The Strength Within

When you have to make sense of the senseless…turn to the strength within.

That’s what Jesus did. He made sense of the senseless by turning to the strength within.

Today, Easter Sunday, is a day to make the amazing strength of Jesus to deal with the senseless, your inspiration.

He showed us how it’s done.

Let's do it.

When you have to cope with disappointment…turn to the strength within.

That’s what Jesus did. He coped with disappointment by turning to the strength within.

Today, Easter Sunday, is a day to make the strength of Jesus to deal with disappointment, your inspiration.

He showed it can be done.

Let’s do it.

When you suffer great pain…turn to the strength within.

That’s what Jesus did. He suffered great pain by turning to the strength within.

Today, Easter Sunday, is a day to make the strength of Jesus to suffer great pain, your inspiration.

He showed it can be done.

Let’s do it.

When you are dealing with rejection…turn to the strength within.

That’s what Jesus did. He dealt with rejection by turning to the strength within.

Today, Easter Sunday, is a day to make Jesus' capacity for dealing with rejection, your inspiration.

He showed it can be done.

Let's do it.

To forgive and forget…turn to the strength within.

That’s what Jesus did. He forgave and forgot by turning to the strength within.

Today, Easter Sunday, is a day to make the amazing strength of Jesus to forgive and forget, your inspiration.

He showed it can be done.

Let’s do it.

To find the will to persist in your mission…turn to the strength within.

That’s what Jesus did. He found the will to persist in his mission by turning to the strength within.

Today, Easter Sunday, is a day to make the will of Jesus to persist in his mission, your inspiration.

Let’s do it.

When your faith is tested…turn to the strength within.

That’s what Jesus did. When his faith was tested, he turned to the strength within.

Today, Easter Sunday, is a day to make the amazing capacity of Jesus to continue to be faithful, your inspiration.

He showed how it’s done.

Let’s do it.

Don’t let disappointment crush you, don’t let shame, humiliation, or grief, submerge you, don’t let betrayal and rejection weaken your faith…

Just turn to the strength within…like Jesus did.

What better day, than today, to make a new promise to yourself…

“I will turn to the strength within like Jesus did!”

Happy Easter.  Have a wonderful, blessed day. May you walk a different man or woman, in some small way, starting today